Sisterhood-My Sister's Keeper

This down time during covid has definitely allowed for some intense self reflection, self study or svadyaya. Over the past few years, and definitely recently, I have had some interesting moments of honesty about who I am, why I am the way I am, & learning to grow in acceptance of the woman I’m evolving to be. “Sisterhood”, as I was simply anticipating creating a blog post that would probably be in 2, maybe 3 parts, has transformed into something more. This blog is my safe space to be vulnerable & honest with others and even more-so, with myself as I tap into topics that not only still feel rather raw but discuss topics and relationships with women that are ongoing. I’m nervous but excited! “Sisterhood” will be an ongoing thread with a variety of topics that involve family, friends, my realization for the need of a mentor, the mistakes I’ve made & had to reconcile with, interactions with women who are competitive, women who are passive-aggressive, women who take criticism personal & react in ways contradictory to whom they claim to be, being in the company of women that throw favors in your face to remind you what they did for you-dangling events over your head as a reminder, being looked down on by people who simply don’t even know me & learning how to maneuver all of it. I’m certain, if you are reading this, you’ve encountered at least one scenario. My heart is seeking the support of women who are seeking the same space I am-finding in a sister-friend one where you mutually challenge each other to be better, make you feel like you can be your authentic self without needing outside superficial validation. Our passions for quality of life and understanding the importance of support run parallel.

You force each other to grow. Someone you don’t feel like you have to compare successes with because success is measured differently from person to person, & often times, moment to moment with the same person depending on life’s events. And so much more! I’ve learned I want to have a supporting friendship/sisterhood with other women where we can support each other’s growth, celebrate each other’s successes, & we challenge each other out of love, not out of competition or seeming to be better than another person because of accolades and the like.( You can probably tell this competition thing is heavy-I guess I feel it’s heavy because that’s not my nature) This discovery of what I needed seemed simple, but it posed a bit more challenging than I had anticipated. I think this is due to fear or rejection. Allow me to share with you my journey & I also welcome wisdom and encouragement from you. I will add one more thing…These topics aren’t meant to demean anyone & I will be mindful to speak of my experiences without appearing to attack anyone. That’s not my purpose here. However, I must say, as I create these personal dialogues and discussions, the heightened level of vulnerability is palpable, but I’m ok with that.